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Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist

Both the book and the movie made me squee like a school girl. Which is to say: this is not my most dignified moment ever. Come to think of it, my other moments aren’t bursting at the seams with dignity either. But there’s certainly a graduated scale. For instance, it’s rare for librarians to guffaw and call other librarians over to point at me when I check out my snooty literature. Today however… I am not joking. Today I was mocked by librarians.

Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist, the movie, lacks the depth of Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist, the book. I don’t think this is terribly surprising to anyone, given the general state of book adaptations. (Also, have you noticed that the title is very fun to say? Go ahead. Out loud, please.) Tris, the evil wench of the movie, is a more textured evil wench in the book, who manages to give some morally unsound but plot driving advice to both Nick and Norah. Caroline is almost a non-player in the book, and the other members of Nick’s unnameable band (except Dev, who has a heavier speaking role) are barely present. Tal, Norah’s controlling serial ex-boyfriend, is equally important in the book as the movie, in terms of character motivation, but he’s a more visible character in the movie.

The treasure hunt aspect of the movie is most of what makes it endearing, as well as Michael Cera living out my hipster fantasy life goals, mostly in the form of bemused repartee, but the romance between Nick and Norah eclipses everything else in the book. Pursuing “Where’s Fluffy?” is such as strong aspect of the movie because it gives us intimate knowledge of the texture of the New York City music scene; at least, the texture the director wants us to feel. The NYC of the book felt closer, more intimate; possibly because I’ve never been to NYC, and I was picturing the characters in the cities where I have been. Still, it’s a good adaptation. Neither too close to the source material, nor ignoring it. Good job.

Both works have that pop-buddhist, new-agey feel. It’s fairly trendy to live “in the now,” and practically worship spontaneity and all that brings. I like that, but feel the need to balance it. Even so, Nick & Norah’s “the mosh pit doesn’t lie” mantra resonated at some level with me. And I’m a fan of anything that pulls me toward less irony and less self consciousness.

The book, more than the movie, makes me want. The movie inspired me to make mixes (of poetry, not music, manifested in the ever forthcoming mix zine Bricabrac), but the book has inspired me to write. Immediately after reading Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist I had an irresistible compulsion to write personal, intimate, immediate poetry; spray-paint and smuggled sharpie poetry in public places; vigilante, joyous poetry written for, to, and about specific people; full of honesty and the right words.  No safe poems here.

And I finished the book a half hour ago, so I’m off to do that.

Bricabrac – my papernet poetry mix zine

A month or so ago I watched Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist and loved it (Michael Cera exudes the Neeson effect: he makes otherwise mediocre movies watchable). After draining my heart of sap build-up, I started thinking about the idea of mixing music; how to do it, what holds songs together, the purpose of a mix, and so on. Then I realized I know very little about music, and don’t care about music as much as I care about poetry. So, I decided to make mixes of poems instead.

In the nascent spirit of papernet, I’m going to post PDFs of these mixes (on what schedule, I have no idea). My friend, Tofer Moran, designer, artist, musician and et-cetera-extraordinaire, is helping me lay it out.  He had the idea to make it one zoo-map-like sheet, as opposed to my idea of cutting books and stapling and so forth. This is why I pass ideas through my friends. Because their ideas are good. And less work. The single sheet is more true to the idea of papernet, and it looks so cool; you would not believe it.

Bricabrac (the title was his idea also) will be one 11″x17″ sheet, folded into eight sections, surrounded by another 8.5″x11″ sheet folded into an envelope. You’ll be able to print it out and assemble it yourself, or you can email me your address and I’ll mail you one I put together. I might read the poems aloud and post the recording as well; I’m not sure. I’ll almost certainly read my own poems aloud at some point.

I’ve never edited an antholody, or magazine, or even made a mix of music, so I have no idea what I’m doing. That’s ok by me. There’s no real criteria for these poems, they’re just the ones I’ve noticed lately. And if you love a particular poem or poet, let me know down there in the comments. Bricabrac is all about sharing good poetry.

Ys

I’d heard Milk-Eyed Mender a few times, but I only really got into Joanna Newsom’s music with Ys. What a beautiful album.

At first, her voice turned me off. I had a crappy bootleg of Yarn and Glue. Or are all versions like that? Mine was recorded in some sort of drive-me-mad stereo mode. It oscillates from left to right and buzzes like crazy, sounds like it was recorded underwater, on an electrified platform. I gave her another chance with Milk-Eyed Mender, and now her voice is one of the main reasons I listen to her music. Recently, I’ve been more interested in distinctive, raw, low-fi vocals that convey honest emotion rather than a produced, clear sound. I guess it’s not quite fair to say that polished vocals are less genuine. That’s like assuming all decent people are disingenuous because they’re not as bad as me. Even so, I’d rather hear Tom Waits than Frank Sinatra, though that’s due to subject matter as well.

More than anything else, I love Joanna Newsom’s poetry. I’m functionally illiterate when it comes to music, so I try to latch on to the one thing musicians do that I understand even a little: lyrics. A few samples from Ys, which speak very well for themselves:

It was a dark dream, darlin’, it’s over
The fire-breather is beneath the clover
Beneath his breathing there is cold clay, forever
A toothless hound-dog choking on a feather.

— Only Skin

and

When you ate I saw your eyelashes
Saw them shake like wind on rushes
In the corn field when she called me
Moths surround me – thought they’d drown me

And I miss your precious heart
And I miss your precious heart

Can you hear me, will you listen milkymoon
Don’t go near me, don’t go missing
In the lissome light of evenin’
Help me, Cosmia – I’m grievin’

— Cosmia

and one more:

Let us go! Though we know it’s a hopeless endeavor
The ties that bind, they are barbed and spined and hold us close forever
Though there is nothing would help me come to grips with a sky that is gaping and yawning
There is a song I woke with on my lips as you sailed your great ship towards the morning

— Emily

And it helps that she’s unbearably beautiful. Proof:

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I love her unassuming, completely comfortable presence. She’s poised, but not cold; self-assured without seeming arrogant. When she talks, it’s like she’s found a treasure she wants to share, and that is so wonderful. There are few objects in the universe more beautiful than an intelligent, passionate woman. Ok, I’ll stop now.

So I suppose I didn’t say much about Ys itself. It’s more orchestral than Milk-Eyed Mender. Conceptually, it deals loosely with an ancient, sea-drowned city, though Newsom doesn’t go down the crass or operatic trails of concept albums; she loosely fits the music around various themes, leaving a lot of room for metaphor (her harp is the sea, etc), and for melodic experimentation. All of these are worth points on my scale.

Anathem

Even Neal Stephenson’s grocery lists are epic and huge. Their scope reaches beyond naming potential purchases, to examining the august fabric of food, the meaning behind grocery stores, the deep chemistry of our greasy gut juices. I doubt the man has ever written a piece of fiction less than a million words long in his life. I am not complaining. But I think I grew a muscle in my arms from carrying this book around.

At its simplest, Anathem is a book about rationalist monks saving the world with their huge brains. These monks are fiends for categorizing things and forming taxonomies for ideas and objects. They have names for all the ideas they can think of, in the same way every punch and foot flutter has a name and a history in kung fu movies. Much of Anathem is a bunch of nerds arguing with each other about the ideas they’ve named. It’s like the internet, but in person.

The monks have formed orders centered around those ideas. For instance, a Lorite (a member of the order started by Saunt Lora) believes someone, somewhere, has thought all the ideas the human mind is capable of thinking. Or, put more simply: there is nothing new under the sun. And the purpose of the Lorite order is to go around testing other monks’ ideas, trying to prove that somebody already invented what they think they invented. This is an important idea. Anathem is built on the foundation that human history is an endlessly repeating pattern, with past systems and ideas resurfacing in various formations.

Stephenson introduces new vocabulary in the usual way, through context. However, the new and unknown, but vaguely familiar words are so dense that it feels similar to A Clockwork Orange at points. For clarity’s sake, every few pages, and at the start of each new section, he also inserts definitions from The Dictionary, 4th edition AD 3000.

To me the most interesting facet of Anathem is Stephenson’s perspective on changing language. He uses words with a probable trail of etymology. Sometimes he traces words back with links to familiar, existing English words, sometimes not.  Certainly many of the links are tenuous and assumed, which gives the landscape of the novel great depth. The best mind warp is when Stephenson traces the words back to a false start, one that makes sense if you’re reverse engineering it, but isn’t actually true, if this is a world descended from ours.  Which it may or may not have. I’m leaning toward not, though I’m not going to say why so I can avoid spoilers.

If I were better at math, I’d enjoy this book even more, but as it is, despite the sad state of math decay in my brain, I liked it. I’ll be surprised if it doesn’t win some major awards. Eventually I’d like to read his Baroque Cycle, too, but that’s about two feet thick, so I’ll wait on that until I’ve whittled the list down some.

American Indian Trickster Tales

This book is mostly about sex and farts. In all their austere nobility, Richard Erdoes and Alfonso Ortiz have plumbed the depths of American Indian fart jokes and bawdy fireside tales and have compiled them into an easily accessible form, so all the world’s people who can read English good can partake of true American Indian culture. And, because I am actually a ten year old in my head, I thought it was hilarious.

I suppose it’s impossible to know how honestly these stories reflect pre-colonized Native American culture. It’s like the Copenhagen interpretation of quantum mechanics (about which I know absolutely nothing; just sayin). Does your act of observation change the subject, and thus skew the result? Does the lonesome tree make a noise when it falls? Does a bear crap in the woods? (A lot of science happens in the forest, apparently. ) Added to all that, I have to consider the biases of the editors. So I’m not sure if what I’m reading is truly a cross section of Native American myth, as it stood in their culture, or if it’s merely a modern interpretation of their stories. I’ll assume the editors have done their duty in scholarship, and these are true distillations, mostly because I don’t have the schooling to claim otherwise, though I found their retelling lacking at points in authentic flavor.

Even so, the more I read other cultures’ myths, the more I’m struck by the similarities between peoples. The same characters show up on different continents, in stories sung by warring or impossibly distant tribes, in other languages, and they do the same things. With some variation, of course, and different names, but it’s like reading accounts of the same historical event from different perspectives, in the same way you and I would talk differently about a person we both knew.

There’s a trickster god in most pantheons, but he’s especially important in Native American and African stories (though of course Loki and Hermes make a decent showing as well). He’s a god of paradoxes. The trickster is generally a fool, and he performs the duties of his office well. He cracks jokes, bumbles around, and humbles the wise. He generally takes himself very seriously; he’s greedy, selfish, and sometimes intensely powerful. In these stories, the trickster—usually Coyote or Raven—creates the world and then travels it and invents the institutions we know of now like the sun and moon, the tides, fog on the sea, etc. But he’s also a lecherous moron, as proven by a third of this book devoted to Coyote tricking ladies into bed.

These stories are light, for the most part, but not flippant. They’re warm and simple, like family in-jokes. Many have a morality tales sort of sub-text, but they usually don’t preach; they’re full of enjoyment in simple pleasures and lessons without dumbing down human experience to represent “noble savages.” This is hard to do, and Erdoes and Ortiz have done it well.

In which I describe today as succinctly as possible

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Dawn

I’ve never read anything by Octavia Butler, but some list or other recommended her, and Kindred was checked out of the library, so I picked up the Lilith’s Brood trilogy omnibus, in which Dawn is the first book. I figured I’d test her out, and if I liked Dawn, I’d be probably enjoy Kindred as well. Kindred is supposed to be a better book, so I have something to look forward to, because I liked Dawn quite a bit.

Butler’s style is trim without feeling spare. She writes the way I would like to, with few, well-placed modifiers, so it doesn’t feel like sterile reporting. Her characters speak well enough on their own, so she doesn’t have to constantly pepper every conversation with “he said, she said, he said, she said.”

She writes about grief and otherness in a particularly beautiful way. The way Lilith, the main character, is dramatically repulsed by her first interactions with the aliens reveals much about her character and, more importantly, the human heart. Because we aren’t likely to face a planet crippling holocaust followed by an alien invasion, but we are likely to hate our neighbor, whether because he’s different, or because he has things we want. I don’t buy the “we only hate what we don’t understand” doctrine; we hate what infringes on our ability to acquire what we desire. Which helps the planet-crippling-holocaust scenario along, but [unfortunately|fortunately] doesn’t do anything for the intrusive aliens.

Here’s an example of a particularly well written section, albeit one which breaks from her usual smoothness, rhythm, and flow. I like it too much not to include it. I’ll try not to give too much away, but an important, deeply sympathetic character has just brutally died. “It,” in the first sentence, is Nikanj, an alien who has grown close to Lilith.  Also, I didn’t add the ellipses; they’re in the text.

It gave her . . . a new color. A totally alien, unique, nameless thing, half seen, half felt or . . . tasted. A blaze of something frightening, yet overwhelmingly, compelling.

Extinguished.

A half known mystery beautiful and complex. A deep, impossibly sensuous promise.

Broken.

Gone.

Dead.

and later, comparing her feelings to the alien’s:

Grief was grief, she thought. It was pain and loss and despair—an abrupt end where there should have been a continuing.

Butler transmutes human pain, and lets us see it through alien eyes. It’s the same pain. As uncomfortably “other” as these creatures are, they still maintain a sympathetic human core, which enables Butler to bring the reader along with Lilith as she changes to understand them better. Lilith loves specific people, as everyone does, while maintaining a general mistrust toward the aliens as a species. That, of everything else in the novel, is profoundly insightful.

That’s enough for tonight. I’ll save reading the next book in the trilogy, Adulthood Rites, for another day.

In which I attempt to explain myself, and then give up.

I haven’t posted anything in a month besides Twitter digests, and I think we all know those don’t count. I’m 35 responses behind, at least, not counting music.

But I can explain all this away: I’ve been writing short stories for the past month. Mostly just one short story, actually.

“But how can that be?” you say. “Shouldn’t you be able to write a short story in one or two sittings? How could it possibly take you a month to write 15-20 pages? That’s less than one page per day. Are you that lazy?”

“Shut up,” I say. “Or I will drown you with tigers.”

I did write some more poems, so it wasn’t all mental thrashing, but still. A month per short story is silly and unprofessional. However: the deadline for that story is tomorrow, so here’s hoping I’ll be able to sort some of these posts out, and maybe respond to what I read more than once a month.

In other news, I’m writing the next story with a pen, in a notebook, where there is no frickity-frackity internet. Because I have all the self-discipline and focus of a chicken pecking rock salt on the freeway.

Also, I will work on my analogies. Because they are terrible. Like a… Never mind.

In which I had an odd dream.

It’s nearly impossible to describe dreams in any kind of intelligible manner, so I’ll lay this down how I remember it, and if it drives you into the night wailing, so be it. You had fair warning.

I was in the North Carolina woods; they were mostly pines, and I remember a thick cover of pine needles underfoot, and not much in the way of shrubs. Just endless copies of pine trees in formation. Everybody else was having a birthday party up the hill, in the big house with white pillars, but I was down in the woods rooting around for a possible gift, since I’d forgotten to bring one.

“They could use some more meat,” my dad said. “I’d go further in; you’re not going to find anything this close.”

“All right,” I said.

Then he was gone, back up the hill, back into the house. It was oddly silent, for a party. I felt shabby for not bringing anything, but I knew that finding the meat would redeem me. I walked further in.

There is a gap in my memory here. I suppose my subconscious is protecting me, because I didn’t know what I found, or how I killed it. But now I had a black duffel bag beside me in the woods, and it was full. I could still see the house from where I stood. It was a hike, but not too far.

I hauled the duffel bag up to the porch, and someone asked me what was in it. “Orca,” I said, and was, at that moment, thoroughly convinced I’d killed a whale in the forest. They didn’t believe me, so I opened the bag.

A dusky brown, short haired dog-rabbit with wide, tufted ears and a potbelly lay in there like the bag was a coffin, with its paws crossed over its chest. It was grinning with perfectly straight human teeth, and obviously dead.  “See?” I said. “Obviously an orca.”  I have never been more sure of anything.  They were dubious. Still, I know what a whale looks like, and I had one in that bag.

I tried to figure out how much of it I should carve, because the orca would go bad soon. I went inside to ask someone, because I don’t know a lot about hunting, though I was sure it was an orca. In the kitchen, a lot of people I couldn’t really see were reading a poem tacked to a cutting board. They said it was a villanelle, but it didn’t rhyme right, and had too few lines.

“Guys,” I said, “that’s not a villanelle.” But they ignored me. “It’s really not.”

I was getting frustrated, but I knew I had to carve the orca, or it would go bad, and I’d have nothing to give at this party, and that would be really awkward.

At that point, I woke up.

It’s obvious to everyone now that I’ve either gone completely mad, or I’m a prophet, and if the latter is true, then this world is about to get very weird. Read sf as prep, children, or you’ll never make it through the night.

The Irresistible Revolution

While I didn’t particularly like Shane Claiborne’s writing style, or the flimsy support for some of his arguments, The Irrisistible Revolution attacks an important and glaringly large problem with the church in America: our self-absorption.

Throughout the book, there is an aftertaste of biblical thought, though some of the actual content wasn’t quite solid. Especially his biblically insupportable bit about economics, to which Wayne Grudem’s Business to the Glory of God provides a good counterpoint. Also, in reference to his revival of “the spirit of Jubilee,” be wary of cherry-picking Old Testament practices to resurrect. Generosity is good on its own; you don’t need to name it something odd to give yourself legitimacy.

Mostly though, with a few sniffs and snits, the core of what he says is biblical. Love your neighbor means: if he doesn’t have a coat, or groceries, or a job, or any other thing he needs, and you have means, help him out. Under that definition, I fail immediately and exhaustively. But my answer to The Irrisistible Revolution isn’t necessarily throwing everything I have away (i.e. heaps of books and an accordion) and starting a commune. Neat as that would be, I would absolutely wrap myself in the ultra-cool, hippie, I AM HELPING THE POOR HAVE YOU NOTICED HOW VERY AWESOME I AM aura and miss the point.

My solution is starting where I am, in my thrice-cursed Elmer’s white middle class rowhouse next to Walmart, looking for opportunities to serve first the people around me, and then going locally to where people need more and serving them. Helping the poor and downtrodden is beautiful and dirty and wonderful and necessary, and should start close and work its way out. Let your love be genuine.